My thoughts for the day.
I’ve been told that the deep subconcious desire of every human is to pass on genetics and thereforemake sure that a piece of them survives, like a legacy. Maybe it’s just me, but I’ve always found that a little bit wonky since I personally have no desire to just breed an army of little midget me’s in order to make sure that my genetics survive. But I have noticed that, in some ways, everyone does want to be remembered. And most of the time, I think it IS subconcious. I wouldn’t say that anyone wants to get married and have kids for the sole purpose of passing on their genetics…. they want to get married and have kids out of love. But subconciously, the desire is that the love take on a life of its own, I guess. It’s shown in the world.
ANYWAYS. My point is that I do believe that every person’s subconcious inserts itself into what they do. Maybe it’s that whole “pass ourselves on” sort of thing. Maybe it’s just because that’s human nature. But whatever the reason, I’ve noticed that that’s what happens.
I’ve been going over one of my books and it’s amazed me how much of my own self I can see in it. I always knew it was like that, I recognized myself in it right after I finished the rough draft of the first outline; but the more I read it now the more of my own experiences I see. The weird thing? None of it was intentional. Sometimes I pay a little homage to (or poke a little fun at) my friends or life situations, and I did do a little bit of that in this particular book. But now, I see that it follows certain parts of my life and of my personality even more so than I thought, and definitely not as I planned.
Why do our subconcious minds find their way into what we create? Is it really because deep down we want to make sure that our experiences, pain, and day to day lives live on? Is it because who we are is shaped by the things we experience, so therefore the work created will naturally reflect the creator?
Something tells me that maybe it’s a little bit of all of the above, and that I’ll probably never really know for sure.